Down but Not Out !

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Last week was my worst week ever! A week I wish no one of you will ever come across..A lot of things happened to my family and it was really dreadful.
I really don't wanna go in detail so Ill keep it short! first on Monday a gang of robbers mugged by dad while coming back from the bank after taking money which was saved by him and my mom all through life in order to take my Bro to USA for his studies. He was SHOT as well and fortunately the robbers did that just to scare him and his driver and take only the money ( Thank God for that ! ) I was really scared ,sad and annoyed cos no one in my family told me about this until a friend asked me if such a thing happened.. There were tears in my eyes while i was on my way home and I couldn't control myself when I saw my Dad and cried for a long time while hugging him.. The thing that got me annoyed was that no one in my family told me about this. thinking that I would get scared.. but common I am 23 right? family is all I got and anything happening to them does make me sadder than anything else.I recovered on the same day momentarily and wanted to forget the whole thing and I must say prayers were answered by God cos I think God saved my Dad's Life.

Then it was Thursday the day Bro went to US. it was a very sad day I was thinking about it all day at work and couldn't even do my work properly.I thought I would be strong to handle it but when the time of arrival came I couldn't control myself I didn't want him to see me crying so I went out hid my emotions as much as I can till he went and then cried the whole night I couldn't sleep for a while and the emotions just ran through.. I will not see him for 2 or 3 years as its really expensive when it comes to traveling from SL to US and vice versa.But i was determined to help my parents out with the Cash to bring him back at least once cos I know they can't wait without seeing him tho we get to see him and kit through msn , Facebook etc etc.

Also my Sister is not well 2. from her childhood she has suffered from the wease and also she gets very upset soon for anything and becomes really uncontrollable and need to be looked after carefully. Lately she have been troubled by my cousins who made some bad jokes to her which she didn't like and her Boyfriend (she has one god I am the only person single in the family !) has not been nice to her lately as well and she has become sick again! I was fucking mad hearing all this shit people did /do to my Sis common why don't they take a break and do not try to understand her ? she is a very sensitive person and a small thing breaks her heart.these people don't understand that and I swear I WOULD PUNCH HER BOY'S ARSE WITH BOTH OF MY LEGS IF I EVER SEE HIS FACE ! HE IS MESSING WITH MY SISTER THAT'S THE WORST CRIME A PERSON CAN DO ! I am annoyed with my cousins 2 I talk with only a handful nowadays I have blocked them on chat and talk with them less than I used to cos for me Family comes first nothing else!.

Well that's how my week went.. I really don't know how to handle this cos I know my Mom cant cos she looks into all of these as well and also takes care of My Grandma.. I have realized that it sucks to be the elder son in the family but when its emotional I do become a baby and mad than A lion or a elephant out of control ! its sucks really but I am trying to keep calm and handle every situation tears do come emotions do run wild but i try to keep myself focused and calm my main goal is to protect my family and I m gonna do whatever it takes 2 make it right! No fucker , asshole or bitch can hurt my family members if they do I swear to myself that I will give them pain till they Die !

I wanted to write about this during the weekend but still the pain didn't ease off cos the incidents that occurred was just too much for me to handle.. However I have recovered and gonna be the Elder Son my family want me to .. I am gonna be calm as much as I can and be a role model to my bro and sis. I am gonna survive the pain and be a winner in life and bring every happiness to my family. I dont want a family for myself now cos I have one which I cherish so much its the best and will be the best.

Well some good news to share with you 2 :) Bro is safely in US and Dad also went with him and I am sure that would help him to forget the whole incident that happened with him. Bro went to his Uni yesterday so hopefully all his preparations for the new Sem will go well. Sis is still recovering I bought her pizza yesterday to eat and enjoy and make her feel better hopefully she will recover soon 2 and her BF .. he is gonna be safe for the moment...

Have a Gr8 Week Everyone ! and May the Noble Triple Gem Bless U Always !

Until Next Time..

~Peace~

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